What alternative is there to smoking? Drugs that aren't too hard or something that will pass the time. I've come to the point where I'm desperate I need to lessen.
>got my first job, an office job in I.T., 4 months ago
>I sit in a desk of 3, the guy on my left is awesome, another guy sitting close behind me is also great, and it's the most social part of the office
>job is sometimes relaxed, sometimes very stressful but these guys around me make it bearable
>I get to have nice conversations with these guys every few hours, so I actually like my job
>I have depression but feel like I'm sort of recovering thanks to them
>they took in a new guy 1 month ago
>today they said someone from my desk had to switch seats with him
>I didn't want to and joked that I wanted to quit the job if I had to change
>the dude on my right didn't want to change either, because he has a stupid wall with a stupid shelf to put shit on next to where he's at
>so I changed places myself because I'm a doormat
>now I'm too far away from my friends and there's a wall behind me and only one guy next to me (he's okay but it's not the same)
What can I do? I'm very emotionally dependent, I know I have to fix that. I'm also afraid that winter is coming and I have bad seasonal depression. I feel like I won't make it. I want to quit but it will be seen as a retarded reason (also getting a new job will be hard). Idk if I should pester them to have the other dude switch seats but I will be seen like an idiot crybaby now that we've changed the computers around and everything.