Met the Girl of my Life 2 years ago. I had Chances to get her as a Girlfriend but i didnt took them, >fucking beta faggot i hate myself and i know if the Universe is not going to give me another chance i will die cause of it.
There was a Time I was over her; There were like 2 months i didnt saw her. But then we randomly met on a little City "festival" the feels hit me stronger then every Drug before.
Im completly addicted to her.
Also i have Depressions since a half year or so and its getting worse despite i take vitamins and shit.
>20 years old, feeling like im 70+
Im simply tired of life. Going on psychiatric therapy next month.
I know that i will not become old without her, and even with her i cant imagine i would satisfy her.
>yes there were other girls i could have a chance and currently have, but im not getting a boner from not a single women except from her.
>i dont even see her as a sexual object, just to watch her gives me the biggest orgasm