You're putting too much faith in others; never attach yourself to something or someone that you can't walk away from in 30 seconds or less.
Religious people have been taught faith and loyalty, maybe associate with them; try different groups of people. Youth and the average joe will not be trustworthy.
Don't live by anyone else's standards, and don't violate them either; we're individuals for a reason.>>19256752
The first recommendations I have for you are lifestyle tips: learn to meditate, walk, work out, and listen to something or someone with perspective (a lecture, a podcast, a memoir, anything.)
Learn to appreciate life instead of scrutinizing it; you're not going to change anything or anyone by worrying about it.
If that doesn't work, you need to put yourself into social situations. Go to clubs, meetings, or community events and flex your muscles. Social skills need to be developed.
If that doesn't work, I recommend therapy lastly. Talk to someone who can give you perspective and maybe medication if it's a brain problem.
You seem overwhelmed. Just have a day where you walk or roam, alone. Get perspective.