Yeah, I am, it's just that there's a pretty definite time limit since there's no work available in my neck of the woods. I'm basically banking on something opening up for holiday seasonal work so I can make it through the first few months of 2022. Things like finding a doctor to help me get on disability if I'm even eligible? That's just all luck/chance, and I have no control over it. Believe me, I call every single day, and I try to get a fucking appointment. Originally it was every 3 weeks, but they keep telling me "oh we just missed you, we'll get you the next one". Shit's frustrating. The weight loss, I'm not worried about. I know I need to do better, it's just hard to want to do better when there's cheap, good tasting junk food everywhere. I just need to eat less, to start, and then work on eating better. I can burn through 3 frozen digiorno pizzas in a day, no problem. And that's definitely too much.