I know this 100% inflicted by porn and “duh Jews” or something so I went on semen retention two years ago but the urges are still there. I know I wnbaw because I am literally to masculine and hind have given me a reason to never troon out. But any of this does is make me feel like an ugly unloveable piece of shit. Should I just dump my money into full body hair removal and live in vrchat? I can’t fucking take living in my own skin and even if I could become “androgynous” rather than masculine I would be happy.