2016 raped my life. Almost literally. I would actually honest to god take ass rape every day than deal with what i deal with.
"schizophrenia" hit one day. Still don't know wether to believe this or not, but i have believed people are reading my thoughts. I am a skeptic, i know crazy people think they are sane. Started out thinking i was being watched but it progressed to that. Heard people repeat the time before i looked at the clock, when i wholeheartedly thought it was hours prior to the exact minute of the time that was said to me. It doesn't happen often, mostly it is just noise. People have commented on typed/spoken words that i thought were perfectly right, but upon looking them up i used the wrong word for the situation. Many other things like that have happened and i believed in schizophrenia for a while. Now there is so much overwhelming intangible evidence that i don't know what to do. Look up remote neural monitoring and electronic harassment. I used to think those people were insane until i have heard things that my subconscious could not have possibly picked up on. I hear constant noise, every thought in my head is repeated.
If i explained the whole ordeal even the most skeptical person would have at least looked into what i am talking about. But i'm drunk and wanted to make it short and sweet. Picture actually believing somebody can understand your every single thought, trying not to think bad things, worrying about every little thing. My life went from pretty shit, but doable to an absolute living hellhole in which i must adapt to but can't.
One of the best men i have ever met in my life is also dying of ALS syndrome currently and everything is a mess.
I love you guys. I know a lot of you feel down on your luck, i used to occasionally be depressed. But just know that there are people out there living in hell. If this ever goes away i am detecting my entire life to some sort of charity to help all of the people that are less fortunate.