yea im literally gonna be on this board, recanting hte fact that i've been sitting in my room at my parents house since may 2019, desperately and frantically hanging on to every loose word about "updates" as to when SEA will open again so i can have sex.
How i get lost in grandiose thoughts about my triumphant return, how ill be the "man around town" with my 7k rolex with a VS diamond bezel, or maybe a 10pointers tennis bracelet, that literally looks like a sparkler when i strut around insomnia and the gogo bars
the western bar managers, who thought their 2k salary and "Status" had elevated them to gods, would suddenly be eclipsed by the radiance of a young 29 year old american, sauntering into the club with his rolex (or tennis bracelet who knows) and his crisp, clean alexander mcqueen oversized kicks.
i have 45k sitting in a bank account, and 20k is alotted for the purpose i previously mentioned. this is all i have in life, this is all i live for. there is no future for me in america. i have no life force in this country; only vicious contempt and anger to even have to go outside my house and see the rest of the rats that im forced to occupy this nation with.
my hope springs eternal. the light in my heart that beams towards thailand will never extinguish itself. i will have my day in the sun.