One of the most important skills for myself that I have been slowly re-developing is my imagination and faint visualisation. It is something I naturally did as a boy but as I went further through public schooling I began losing it and thought in dialogue mostly, it was one of the many things that felt extremely wrong about the state of things. As I took on university it began slowly coming back, I remember being in my room sometimes after math classes in a near shock from what my mind was doing, visualising and manipulating abstract objects, showing me an intuitive understanding of infinities, sets, linear transformations, and so on. It's a slow process so it still happens sometimes. Worth noting this is after I had prayed to a positive godlike entity to help me understand and began assuming my existence within it. After this it's like every single book had changed, something like Plato's more out there dialogues for example on things such as psychic diseases, abstract objects and rebirth actually began making some sense.
Yes I explore different types of meditations and am beginning to try and find ones on my own by just thinking and experimenting. My knowledge feels like it has become abundant for the time being and I need to practice far more now.
I look forward to the winter. >>33058190
I am not sure if I am interpreting this higher self in the same way. I have interpreted many different spirits that have helped me so far. But I have started the practice recently to try and simply deny negative entities and nullify connections with them. It seems to have some effect on the weaker ones at least which is a nice removal of weights.