I'm not gay buy I like to imagine that I'm my gf and I'm trapped in my own (my bf's) body, but I have still retained my sexual orientation and stuff and so I masturbate to buffed up athletic guys. Am I a degenerate?

How much of a hassle will it be to stich the head, arms and legs of a Pokémon plushy onto a torso only sillicone sex doll?

And I still get 0 matches lmao why

Does anyone else feel like they suck socially? At my job im kind of either ignored, disliked or treated as a joke. Im not that bad of an worker honestly, I just do whats asked of me and I don't any extra shit im not paid to do and I treat it serious enough to where I come in every day. I don't act like how I do online irl. My biggest issue is that I just don't know how to have a personality. After a mental episode 3 years ago, I kinda just "lost" my personality and I just awkwardly autopilot. I just feel like a concept, idea or a role an actor plays. With girls I am convinced im the type of ugly where id get in trouble if I tried to flirt with a girl. It kinda boils down to me not feeling comfortable in my skin, you know?

>in a sexually unsatisfying relationship
>have secret fetish for certain types of heavier women
>meet an incredibly sexy bbw through work, she's conventionally a solid 3 or 4, but easily a 10 as far as my sexual tastes
>add her on social media after having a few sexually charged conversations about gardening
>she slides into my dm's

The bbw knows I have a gf.

I know I'm a piece of shit. I guess I just want advice on how to approach the situation, and I'd love to hear from anyone who's been in a similar situation.

To be clear: I fully intend to rail this bbw in the ass.

My ex dumped me a few weeks ago. He said we could still talk but hasn't attempted to initiate contact since. He did respond to me when I texted him, though (to see how he was doing). I don't want to bother him and normally if someone breaks up with me I wouldn't bother contacting him again, but he's the one who said we can talk. So does he want to be left alone or is he actually ok with me contacting him?

How do I make the value go into the negatives?

>go out in real life
>People treat you normally
>Go on 4chan
>People spaz out once they find out you're non-white
Now I just assume people in real life are all racists in disguise who go online to write racist shit when they get home. I can't look at people the same anymore. Is the way people act on an anyonymous imageboard the way that normal people feel underneath their IRL demeanour?

Why do my legs bend forwards?

You seeing this shit? My leg bends at a sharp angle. What the fuck. This isn’t normal. I can’t even google it. It only comes up with bow legs.

But my shin is straight up bent like a pipe. You seeing this? What the fuck is this? Did my legs break without me realizing and it healed wrong?