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tl;dr I have reached self hatred and paranoia through randomly self induced moral decay and believe God's wrath is coming any moment because of repeating numbers, symbolic events etc.
>Be me about a half a year ago, researching MK-Ultra, Aliester Crowley, CIA
>Sleep in the middle of day
>Have dream where hand comes out of wall and hands me a letter with numbers on it
>Try to retrieve the number, get 300901, might be wrong but better than nothing
>Interpret by matching letters to numbers "CIA"
>A few days later try to communicate with it, believe it revealed itself as a darker aspect in one of my stories in a character, try out a made up diagram, put it against the wall and try talking to it, nothing happens though
>Few months later want to stop someone from getting the vax, decide Christian god won't be strong enough so I pray to the "true" god (at this point I don't think it's the being from the wall)
>A few days later I find a box at a fair with a black sun (a symbol I associate not with the nazis but a divine creator entity) like symbol on it I interpret as being associated with the true god (i see the sun as the core god and the rays as it emanations), on top of it the box says excalibur, associated with black sun, though the person who made the box obviously did not realize this
>Pray to the god more, but stop a few weeks later, something feels off but not enough
>>24986855 >But am I if I am aware of my actions, and how crazy said actions sound
lmao literally the prodrome of schizophrenia but you think you can just walk it off
okay man don't get treatment and enjoy your brain
nah you're just a weakling and he wasn't. also mental illnesses don't exist. or more precisely, it's not possible for someone who doesn't know the meaning of life to determine if someone is mentally ill or not
he was getting lots of offers for help from his followers, he rejected all. probably knew better the way he's supposed to die than you do.
If God didn't take action to punish Hitler or Idi Amin or Saddam Hussein while they were killing people by the thousands, then God probably isn't going to punish you for "bad thoughts" or whatever the fuck you're going on about
>>24986759 >>24986761 >>24986762
may be a sign that you need to cross some boundary. no it's not looking up virgin mary porn or breaking rosaries, but something that's a much bigger taboo for you.
since you understand part of your world isn't grounded in reality, try to look for a restraint in 'reality' that you would need to break from. maybe you want to go to meetup and talk to people / try make friends / join a philosopher discord / try to talk to women / try a (different-) job / move to a different country for a while. whatever. it seems your mind is making you break boundaries. there's something you don't do "out of principle" or some other reason which restriction -that you put on yourself or circumstances put on you- is now obsolete and you should try to experiment with whatever it prevented you to experiment with.
Is it wrong to date someone who is your idea of "second best"? Would you be obligated to tell him?
There is someone I'm in love with. I think he has perfect looks and the perfect personality. But it is obvious I will never get to date him and I'm not holding out hope.
I'm lonely and want to get a boyfriend and settle down, but I feel like I only want to date someone who looks like and acts like him. Who is like a fascimile of him.
I feel that it is wrong to date someone because they're like a store brand edition of someone else. But it is also wrong to date someone you are not interested in. So maybe I should be single, but that's lonely and sad.
Best course of action?
My girlfriend is basically my Plan B and I don't give a shit. Stop caring.
Find someone else you won't have regrets or feel like you're settling over? I can't believe some people are this socially stunted.
Hey OP, not sure on what advice to give you but I have noticed that a lot of girls that were into me got with someone that closely resembled me. Always found it weird.
I even asked one of them if she liked guys that looked like me before meeting me but apparently she didn't.
Do you think often about the plan A when you're with B?
Do you imagine having sex with A when you're with B?
Do you hope to get together with A one day and you're just practicing with B?
Would you break up with B if A wanted to pursue smth with you?
Thanks OP, I hope you find what you're looking for.
Here is a protip, if you are gonna make bait like this use an image a femoid would use, not spurdo, it breaks your credibility. Also you can always use IPhone filenames for even more credibility.
Don't do it. You will be unhappy and it will end soon enough. Speaking from experience here.
What are some good ways to meet potential partners without a) online dating b) going to bars/clubs or c) through work?
Being attractive and walking down the street
Do things. Literally be a part of something. You like vidya? running? reading? orgy? find club for it
Yes you read that correctly. My wank habits have been getting worse since I was 16 (despite the fact that I do it less). I've reached an all new low point, thank fucking god I didn't show my face.
I'm supposed to be going out with uni friends in 2 hours. How on earth do I mentally cope with this
Is it weird to say that I'm tired of fapping?
It feels more like a chore nowadays. I can abstain from it for around a week, but then I can't stop thinking about it until I do it. It's also harder not to think about it in uni as well, with practically every guy talking about sex one way or another all the time.
Should I try and get a girlfriend or something? It's obviously expected of me at this age, I just haven't really been thinking about it. I've only had one short fling before and it didn't really go anywhere
you've just been jerkin the gerkin for a bit, everyone does it, and don't worry, your video will be drowned out by the millions of other guys fapping
You're getting older and your libido is going back to normal levels, as is normal
View Same Google iqdb SauceNAO Trace pornhub-insights-women-vs-women- (...).png,
Masturbation is essentially pumping into your brain fixed emount of happy hormones. And as with everything, our brain has memory and ability to adapt. So your first fap feels
>AMAZING OMG WHAT IS THIS I WANT MORE OH GOD YES
and your 100th fap feels like
>oooh i needed that, now what will be for breakfast?
For same reason druggies go from WEED lmao to harder drugs. We all chase the high in one way or another.
But as i said, you have to release the cum. Thats how men are built. And yes getting gf is nice. You can cuddle and take her to places you would normally never go yourself alone and roleplay as chad when you kiss her in public, forcing all incels and losers to see it.
is your face in it? if not then who cares? it's hard to id someone without their face.
If you were about to restart your life all over again and had to choose some 3 year degree halfway in your 20s, what would you do?
Business school i could do but it's like 60k € ++ over 3 years for a degree that gives me at best ~2k/ month doing useless work
Well, I picked my current degree/career because I thought about what'll give me freedom to move around in the industry while giving me peace in the heart, as corny as that sounds. Basically I wanted a job where as I get old, I become a better (and richer) person.
What job/degree did you choose?
If you're willing to put in the effort, without a doubt the best degree is comp sci.
40 hour work weeks for 80k starting salary and 6 figs only 2 years into working sounds great doesn't it?
Yeah in my country we have the "école 42" a friend talked to me about that. 3 years, free of charge, then you get 4k/month. At least that what i was sold. If French people can tell me their opinion itt i am interested but otherwise i might go for that.
What do people mean when they tell to learn skills and increase one's income?
Do they mean going to uni? Do they mean arcane money-summoning skills?
People who usually say that are programmers and they mean you should learn more programming languages and shit
it gets trickier in other jobs
I don't know about other fields or industries, but I work in software.
Basically, whatever your field is, look at job postings and find skills or certificates that higher paying jobs in your field want, and then get those.
Open google and type there
Companies literally pay google (and other ad agencies) massive money so they end up on top of that search.
Then fucking look up what pays the most (or what you consider as comfy job, for some people its watching paint dry <security>, for some its killing people <army>, for some its working with people <teacher> and for some its making others lives miserable <office drone>) and then look up the requirements. Simple
>take a shit
>there's blood on it
How did that happen? I don't squeeze too hard with my asshole, my turd was soft, I drink a good amount of water. I eat fibres too, cereals for the most part. Do I have a tumor up my ass doc
I will get the second dose of picrel tomorrow.
Anything I should know beforehand?
Second shot usually has worse side effects because your immune system is more prepped. A "wtf? We just got rid of you!" Kinda attitude.
That's what the doc told my brother.
this is what vaxxtards actually believe
That anon is actually right, thats exactly what happens. With 1st dose your immune system reaction to virus is kinda whatever, typically mild fever and feeling tired. And once the system finally makes the anti virus bodices there isnt any virus in your body anymore (because they injected you with altered one which cannot spread and kill you).
With 2nd dose however the immune system responce is very quick (and more intense) because the anti bodices are already "premade" and known so on average people feel really shitty even multiple days after 2nd dose.
i didn't feel shit the second time, anon.
if you aren'''t a pussy with an immune system racked by crippling diabetes you wont even notice
is it bad that when i talk to myself i scream nigger faggot in my head continuously and find it amusing? should i leave this fucking site?
am i permanently alienated from society then?
nah it's hilarious
literally everyone in america hates joggers after the 2020 fentanyl flyod riots; we're not the crazy ones, you are.
No? You’ve got your society right here.
they are not a part of society
I have 150k from an inheritance and I am a NEET. I am conflicted between throwing them all into stocks and losing welfare, getting some job with no skill for 30-50k a year getting a mortgage and being tied down to this one job, or letting it sit in cash and watching 5% inflation eat away at it. I've been thinking about going into school for IT but real estate in my country is appreciating at 15-30% a year and I am worried I will be priced out and far far behind if I go to college for 4 years.