i wanted to evade my everyday life because I'm basically a neet and subscribed to *X activity*. from the first few lessons I'm starting to think it won't be that good, it will only give me problems and i won't end up liking the activities nor the socializing, or it'll feel forced/against my nature. or I'll fuck up badly. and I'm thinking of not doing it. plus i don't know if I'm the best candidate for the thing. how can i make a good decision and know what's better before paying a subscription. on the other hand my life has literally zero meaning