Well I already left the discord server some time ago. The invite in the archive isn't working so now I'm worried I'm banned. I just wanted to leave because I thought they'd feel something for me then I'd come back later and I like seeing if people mention me when I leave some place and ask why.
Regardless the problem is more so that this happens and I don't know what I should be doing. I always go too far without realising it I just wish people would not be so fucking dumb and be more open and say what they think. I've been trying out the discord thing since 2016 and I have nothing to show for it. Maybe many people don't as well but I don't know, feels like I should have found at least one person to be with me or one group I don't fuck up or leave or whatever after such a short time. Real life stuff is out of the question. I want someone to acknowledge me, the same person each day and learn about what I've been doing and do things with me. I don't want to be 30 and still trying this. I've long since stop thinking of any 4chan board as my friends. Thanks to anyone who read this.