>>28196940>That does sound like a BPD (or bipolar) moment
Maybe, after talking to bipolar friend I have noticed some things she tells me about it when I ask her I really resonate with.
BUT, my "cycles" if they are that are more like I am unhappy most of the time, and then get bursts of being very happy or energetic or irritated for a few hours.
I started keeping a diary to track myself mentally over months and it lines up as well.
Hell my pasts posts about her are saying how amazing she is and blah blah blah, and while I do think highly of her she is still human with flaws and all that. I am pretty annoyed at her right now because I have not heard from her in what, 12 days now?
I've posted about it here already, but what I didn't say was the plans we had for this weekend are my late birthday celebration with her.
I'm not going to say anything about it, but if she conveniently doesn't mention that while she has been being around other people I am going to be pissed and I am going to let her know why I am unhappy, not that I feel like she would fucking give a damn (and even as I write that I realize it probably isn't accurate but its what my brain is saying)
Tangent aside, I feel like my mood changing isn't long enough to count as bipolar, but who knows maybe it is.>>28196970
I was talking to friends about it yesterday, but I just isolate when I am feeling like this. They have noticed I have been more distant recently (past few months) and not like I used to be, they are supportive of me and I know that but my brain still tells me they fucking hate me and that I fucking hate them in return, even though neither of those things are real.