i dont think its possible to kill yourself, ive failed 3 times, i cut down the street on both my arms, ive tried pills, i tried jumping off a bridge, every time i wake up in the hospital. Look up quatumn immorality and dont go down that path, its only going to make things much worse for you>i would be way too ashamed of seeing the face of my father if i tell him
then dont look him in the face, i couldnt i looked down at the table when i told them, i couldnt even look them in the eyes i was so ashamed, but you are going to have to do it eventually, once you do there is no more worry, its all done, no more hidding, no more having to control every situation driving the conversations away from things that could get you found out, etc.>hey btw, you spent ten of thousands of € for nothing, all my life is a big lie and it's like i never respected you or mom because i wasted all the opportunities and chances you gave me in life. I purposely lied to you for the past 5 years on every aspect of my life, sorry daddy"
instead of "btw" say "i need to tell you something", but yes, you need to say it and not sugar coat it. Please trust me on this, go tell them tonight. just do it.