Man that's a rough break. I can't even imagine how much it would suck to live your entire life in this current timeline. Your ancestors failed you, and for that I'm truly sorry.
That said, the people who wrote this script want you to be a useless, demoralized, suicidal lump of flesh. Is that really what you want, Anon? Killing yourself is the coward's way. All you'd do is displace that pain you feel right now onto others. It is a net negative for the species. You aren't just checking out, you're actively contributing to this clown world by taking that path.
You want to be a real human? Well that takes work. It takes discipline and strength and it's going to hurt a lot. You're already out of the matrix and that's the hardest part. I know, things are bad. Reality is horrifying. Now you're going to need to strengthen your mental immune system by cultivating your mind without going full schizo. Just because some conspiracy theories are true does not mean they all are. Keep your eyes open, but always follow the evidence and seek objective truth. Science is not evil, but it can be abused by evil people.
Read. Educate yourself. Learn new and useful skills. Go camping and look at the stars. Strengthen your body. Do everything you can to improve yourself. Pursue Honor. Become Admirable. Others will see this and be drawn to your light. You can then help them become human as well. Do not become discouraged, this will take time, but it will give your life meaning.
You must never feel shame over the color of your skin, or your gender, or where you were born. None of these were your choice, and you have no right to feel shame (or pride!) about any of them. Likewise, do not judge anyone else on these criteria; judge the individual based upon their actions, their choices, their character.
We need more humans, Anon. There are precious few left. We want you alive and we want you with us.