I would like to live through this, in the hope of a better future, but my body is too weak. Every year I see it got worse and worse, after twenty I became much weaker. Although I can survive in rural areas with almost no communication with society, I prefer to commit suicide when I realize that I will soon be completely blind or another part of my body will fail.
I hope I will get better, although there are no prerequisites for this.
Now I live in a small town, I have a piece of land. I would like to buy a gun, but physically I cannot shoot because of my weak eyesight.