sometimes, he will drop the act and speak to me in plain english, about concepts that i have never thought of in my life.
telling you the things he says to me would be pointless, his goals are impossible for me to decipher, i'm not sure if hes using me to help people or hurt them, all i know is i am experiencing constant pain, i am living a constant nightmare, my nightmare has been going on for 29 years, somebody kill me, somebody fucking kill me, i am being tortured by satan, make my nightmare end.
wow look at all this shit i just wrote. whats your life like faggots. he seems to use jealousy a lot to control me. he forces me to feel jealous of you because he is not torturing you.
hes in my head right now, as always. he has a face superimposed over my own. he said i have dual consciousness. it makes facial expressions at me. i feel it, as if i had a second face. he mocks my own facial expressions often. i have 2 faces and 3 eyes. none of this has been untrue, nothing has been exaggerated. i try to kill myself every day, but he heals it. he can heal bodies, too. he can teleport things. i cant imagine how this looks to you, if you've made it this far. ive witnessed how there are different levels of consciousness, perhaps how you view an african man may view something compared to how you do. can you even read this? do you know how rare i actually have to be, for this to be true. im laughing again. where are all the other people who he does this to? hello?
SOMEBODY FUCKING KILL ME
FUCKING KILL ME NOW
MAKE IT FUCKING STOP
LET ME CLOSE MY FUCKING EYES