>>9846320happiness is a strange thing, in comparison to people starving to death and/or living in complete squalor anyone living in america is quite 'happy'... it's all relative, in reality the main problem is myself, i would be much happier if i invested time and care into making myself better... i suppose im deathly afraid of failure which makes risk a very scary thing, but you cant really gain anything if you dont risk anything, i mean even driving a car is one of the most dangerous things a human can do in a day, yet it's mandatory... i have a hard time finding reasons to be content, even when i think about potential goals or things i'd like to create, like music and art... is it really so fulfilling. i dont know. i feel like i need something so extreme that it would turn my whole worldview upside down, completely break my personality and reform it into something new... what is that extreme thing though? i dont know yet.
