>>12562426I chased two guys my age messing with our house off our property with a knife a year ago barefoot in december and i still cant feel my right pinky toe almost a year later. It bugs the shit out of me because it just feels like its dead. You could hit it with a hammer and i wouldnt feel anything. I can still move it though. not really entirely relevent to anything, but i wasnt even out there that long, so yes, the cold can fuck you up pretty easily. Nerve damage i guess.
Anyways, fucking fears, I have a few.
a few years ago when I was 17 I was pretty sure my mom was going to kill me in my sleep with a knife. My family life has always been pretty crazy, needless to say i had trouble getting to bed.
Also for a few months I spent every night or so wondering if i was actually conscience or not, because i was pretty sure I was in a coma due to some crazy drug experience i had. (i thought i died) It was very intense, and the worst part was i was questioning everything around me as if it was really happening or if it was just me imagining everything within my head. I told my gf about it but she just said not to worry etc etc, that made it even worse because i wasnt sure if i was even talking to the real her or not, and started questioning everything people told me in my head. To this day Im still not sure whether or not anything around me is actually real. When i dream i feel pain, so i dont see why you cant feel it in a coma either. Its one of those things you can't disprove, and have to rely on your faith about i guess.
Also, Ive always been afraid of needles and veins like a motherfucker. I got my blood tested a while back and was shaking and muttering fuck etc etc and couldnt sit still. I told them I wanted to stop and they said no and i almost attacked the nurses.
Tldr im fucked up. deal with it.
