Oh! That is a fair point, it would be. Most unpleasant.
By now, I've been totally depowered and rendered functionally human more than a dozen times across the chain. Light of Terra was disorientating and traumatic, but as I developed I learned to internalise the cycle of mediocrity and wonder-hold on to the memories of what I achieved and was guilty of and aspired for until they became more important than eating or sleeping.
Hah. I remember Lucifer pointed out HE could do it easy as taking a coat on and off, so I wouldn't even say I'm the best at surviving critical self reformation. Just that I've been around the conceptual block and learned to roll with the metaphysical punches.>>52514308
I must say, none of my companions have ever seen it that way.
"JESUS, why did you turn yourself into evil incarnate?! WHY DID YOU THINK THIS WAS A GOOD IDEA"
"Ew ew ew get those tentacles off the bed ew wait why am I into this"
"Oh, let me guess-you've turned into something weird again. I hate mondays">>52514370>>52514355>indomitable will
But I have experienced the loss of that perk-addled will in the past, actually.
I do have firsthand experience with becoming even less than what qualifies as human in some worlds.
I've been there. I remember losing everything that made me "me", and being so desperate I clawed out the disgusting, rotten tissue to be replaced with necrodermis. I remember scratching my skin until it bled because I rejected it, and i remember pulling the hair off my head because I knew there could be mites living in it.
And I survied long enough to reclaim everything I was.
And I grew stronger.
And the true irony is-even as a self-proclaimed harbinger of stasis, in hindsight? It was that cycle of renewl and rebirth that ultimately formed the strongest memories to preserve me when undone yet again.
...'course, it'd be academic without being able to back up that big talk but still.