>>172800936I was abused a few times as a kid and the guilt, shame and some of the completely bizarre things one of them would discuss utterly warped my idea of sex. the guilt and shame and being so used to knowing the strange and shameful when it came to sex acts basically broke my brain into only being able to cum from femdom. I didnt even enjoy it, i felt gross and sad after but whilst i was watching it or talking about it, it was like wearing a giant comfy blanket. i never went to an escort or anything thankfully, but yeah, one day pretty recently actually now im in my 20s i had a near on breakdown and it does nothing for me anymore. im happy it doesnt do anything for me now, even the outfits which i used to love dont do much for me. It's insane how far down into the femdom rabbit hole i was going desu, kinda saddens me a bit. i wish i got some help when i was a teenager desu